Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Desert Preparation

I know my posts have been far and few between, but as I was wrapping up my uni year, my Mum had a nervous breakdown and was diagnosed with depression. She has needed full time care for the last 8 weeks, so I haven't had time nor the energy to sit down and write and study for this blog. Keep my Mum and me in your prayers. :)

Today I opened up an email from Prime Time With God - and this really spoke to me today. I wanted to share it - perhaps this is something you can relate to?


TGIF Today God Is First Volume 1, by Os Hillman

Desert Preparation
Nor did I go up to Jerusalem to see those who were apostles before I was, but I went immediately into Arabia and later returned to Damascus. - Galatians 1:17
The apostle Paul tells us in the first chapter of Galatians some of the facts surrounding his own conversion. He tells us that he clearly understood the call Jesus placed on his life. He did not have to consult other men about this calling. But before he was released to begin his own mission, He went to Arabia for three years. Why did Paul have to go to Arabia for three years before he ever met another disciple of Jesus Christ?
The Scripture does not tell us plainly why Paul spent three years in Arabia. However, based upon many examples of God placing special calls on people's lives, we know it often requires a time of separation between the old life and the new life. No doubt, Paul had plenty of time to consider what had taken place in his life and time to develop an intimate knowledge and relationship with the newfound Savior. His life was about to change dramatically.
So often, when God places a call on one of His children, it requires a separation between the old life and the new life. There is a time of being away from the old in order to prepare the heart for what is coming. It can be a painful and difficult separation. Joseph was separated from his family. Jacob was sent to live with his uncle Laban. Moses was sent to the desert.
When God began a deeper work in my own life, it required a separation from all I had known before. He removed all that I had placed confidence in up to that point. It was very painful and very scary since I was in my mid-40's. In my mind, it was not the time to start life over. I had been making plans for early retirement. God had a different idea. He removed all my comforts and security in order to accomplish a much greater work than what I could see at the time. The picture is clear now. I understand why it was necessary, but I didn't at the time.
Perhaps God has placed you in your own desert period. Perhaps you cannot make sense of the situation in which you find yourself. If you press into God during this time, He will reveal the purposes He has for you. The key is pressing into Him. Seek Him with a whole heart and He will be found. God may have a special calling and message He is building in your life right now. Trust in His love for you that He will fully complete the work He has started in you.

Sunday, October 17, 2010


Missing in Uni Work. :)

I'm still alive, I just have been bogged down with my university studies, and it's hard to squeeze in bible study when all I do is read text books. In a month it will all be over and I can resume back to normality... for the summer anyway. :)

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Be a man!! Misinterpretation at it's best...

I watched this as part of a course I am doing, and boy did I laugh! I thought I would share with you - and see if you can spot the dodgy teaching.


Wednesday, August 11, 2010

God is... #6


Psalms 94:22 But the Lord is my fortress...

You know, I don't get how people who don't know God get through life at times! When people say "Christianity is a crutch" - they have it one baby!! I need to lean on God to get me through the tough times. I need to lean on God when I'm sad, mad, hurt, grieving, depressed etc.

A fortress is such a strong and secure sounding word. It gives really good imagery.

Family Fortress Pictures, Images and Photos

When life is hurling weapons at me, and I feel like I'm being beaten, I can find refuge in God. It doesn't mean the arrows and boiling oil stops immediately, it means that I can bear it better, and withstand better, because I am with God. We would never grow if we didn't have to "do life" - having a fortress means we have extra strength - God's strength.

A fortress offers a certain level of security as well - you aren't out there alone, to be attacked and surrounded by enemy. You are surrounded by strong thick walls, sheltering you and more secure. When I see my life, surrounded by God, with his strength, his love, his care, his grace, his security, I know that I'm going to be ok. I am not invincible, but I'm going to be ok. Each step I take, each tough time I go through, I know that God is my fortress, the one I can trust to give me extra strength, and the one who won't abandon me. I'm glad I'm not alone.

Thank you Lord that you didn't create us, and then abandon us. You are with us, and you offer us strength and security. Thank you that you care enough about us to tell us that you are our fortress, a strength that we can surround ourselves with. Amen

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Well I did it.... and got a big surprise on the other side.

A few months ago I had a chat to our church's youth pastor (also a wonderful friend) about my desire to teach the Word of God. I know that God has placed a calling on my life, and given me the "gift of the gab". :) As always he had great advice and support in these dreams. I shared my frustrations of not knowing how to proceed - I didn't want to big-note myself, blow my own trumpet and brag about my abilities to all and sundry. I didn't want to assume anything and I wanted to be as humble as I could about it. Josh gave me some really good advice and told me how to go about it. I prayed about this advice, and then decided that I was going to go for it.

So yesterday, our Pastor was standing alone, sorting out something or other on his chair - so I leapt on the opportunity to speak with him. I strangely felt very calm and very confident as I approached him. I told him I believed that God had placed a calling on my life and given me gifts in preaching and teaching. I was willing to speak in any area, in any department, anywhere that he could use me, I would be willing to be used. I gave him a copy of the last message I did in my old church and then left it with him.

I felt very at peace with this way of self promoting and I now leave it in God's hands. I have done all I can do.

But something else happened yesterday.

8 years ago I had a vision. I saw myself speaking to a large group of people. I saw it from a side on view - I was standing on the right, and this group of people was on the left. The walls behind them were brown. I don't know why I remembered the color of the walls. They just struck me as odd. And 8 years ago - brown walls WERE odd! :) My visions burn deeply into my mind, I never forget them or forget how they look. They are so detailed and clear and when I recall them, it's almost like having the vision again. God's so creative isn't he??

A month or so ago, I was doing taking some photos of the baptism that was happening at church. I was on the far right of the church, near the font. At one point I turned to look for my husband - and I had a sense of De-ja-vu. I had seen this before. How the lighting fell on the congregation... where the speaker was.... it all looked familiar. I remembered my vision... and thought that it looked very similar. But I always thought the church walls were dark grey. I hadn't really looked closely in full light though. This month I that vision has been on my mind daily and I've been praying about it, trusting in his promises.

Yesterday, after I spoke to our Pastor, my husband's cousin showed up for church and we had her sitting with us. Our Pastor came and spoke to her afterwards, and she commented on the renovations. "Oh yes, this was all done in 2007" (5 years after my vision) This was news to me. But then again, I hadn't been in this church for 12 or so years before we started coming. Our Cousin then said "I like the brown walls". My head whipped around to the walls. THEY ARE BROWN!!! Not dark grey... but BROWN!!

I cannot tell you how odd it is to see your vision in real life. It's a bit scary but also just a teeny weeny bit exciting!! God showed me in detail what he had called me to do - which is preach and teach. And 8 years ago that was a joke. I didn't speak in public. I didn't even know HOW to preach. But today, it's not a joke, it's a passion and desire.

God showed me this vision in this way for a purpose. He showed me a side on view - because he knew that's how I would recognise it. If he showed me how it would look from my eyes, I wouldn't have recognised it, because standing on stage in front of the church, you are lucky to see the first 2 rows because the stage lights are very bright. I wouldn't have seen a thing in my vision if it was from my eyes.

God showed me in my vision the color of the walls - because he knew that's how I would recognise it. But he didn't reveal this to me until after 11 months of being at this church. 11 months at this church and I didn't see the color of the walls! Until yesterday. AFTER I spoke to our Pastor about my gifting.

Coincedence? I think not.

I believe in God. I believe in his purpose. I believe in his promises. I believe he keeps his promises. And I certainly believe that God is flippin' amazing!


God - I'm yours. All yours. Do your thing. :)

Thank you for opening my eyes yesterday. I'm stoked.


Friday, August 6, 2010

God is.... #5


Deuteronomy 10:17 For the Lord your God is the God of gods and Lord of lords. He is the great God, the mighty and awesome God, who shows no partiality and cannot be bribed.

God is God of all gods.

That's awesome! So that means that I'm worshipping the great and mighty - the best, the strongest, the most awesome God there is. God is God of all. That is so good to hear. I would be kind of worried if God said "I'm God, but.... I'm not as good as Buddah."

This verse made me think for a bit... God is definitely God of all - and reigns supreme. But does he reign supreme in our minds and hearts? There are so many things that we are exposed to and have in this world that we can "worship". Movie stars, musicians, sports, TV, books, study, friends.. These types of "gods" are things we put before God. Does God come before facebook? Does God come before my hobbies? If God is God of all "gods" in MY life??

I just love the next line - He is THE great God. THE mighty and awesome God. These are such words of worship. God you are so great, so amazing, you are mighty and awesome. How many songs are there out there that express the goodness of God? How great is our God. Great is the Lord. God is good. Lord your goodness and grace will follow me. How amazing is your love. Amazing grace. Amazing Love. Great and mighty is he. Our God, is an awesome God.... the list could go on. God loves to hear you proclaim who he is and what he is in your worship.

Then the next line makes me chuckle. I've already covered that God doesn't show favourites - but I want to touch on: God accepts no bribes. Were there people who actually tried this???? :)Actually there are people out there today who try to bribe God - and you may even be one of them. But before I explain, I want to properly define what a bribe is.

"...offering something such as money or a favour to influence a decision or an action"

Are you trying to bribe God?
"God if you help me out of this financial situation, I'll join the worship team and play the guitar for you for the rest of my life."
"If you don't answer this prayer, I'm not going to serve you anymore, because what is the point?"
"Well if you can't heal my body, I'm not going to church anymore."

And what about using faith as a bribing tool? Using it as currency to get what you want?
"I'm praying in faith.... see? Faith. God will answer my prayer because I'm praying with faith." Faith is not a currency or to be used to bribe God. God will answer your prayer according to his will - faith is believing that God will do just that. Not a bartering tool.

It's kinda cool in a way that God can't be bribed. It means it's fair for one and all. No one has greater benefits and opportunities because he is offering his gifts and his devotion and super-faith to God to bribe him. God cannot be bought. God acts with wisdom and with what is in our best interests - not what we think is wise and our best interests.

I'm so glad that I worship the Alpha-Omega God. You are all powerful and greater than any other god who was and is. And you chose me. You chose me to be part of your family and I'm so thankful for that. Thank you Lord for revealing another part of yourself to me in this scripture. Thank you for showing that you are indeed very fair and that I am no better than anyone else and no one else is no better than me. Thank you that even though you are top-God and are so great, powerful and mighty - you care about the little things that bother me. You care about my life, my pain, my troubles, my joys, my triumphs. Thank you that in your greatness, you share the life of this flawed, little person. This makes you top-God in my life.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

God is.... #4

Psalms 116:5 How kind the Lord is! How good he is!So merciful, this God of ours!

or as the NIV says: The LORD is gracious and righteous; our God is full of compassion.

Gracious, kind, righteous, good, compassionate, merciful - all such great personality traits!! Sometimes it's hard to remember God as this since we tend to view God through our own experiences. In the past, because of my upbringing and life experiences I have seen God as more like this....




But I'm thankful that God took the time to make sure we knew what he really is. God probably knew that a lot of us would think he was an ogre, or he could hear the preachers who preach hell, damnation and God's hatred onto the world...... like this dude...


Don't hate them... pity them. They do not know the God they "serve" and the God of grace, mercy and compassion. They only see the hatred, vengeance and anger of God (which I personally believe is misinterpreted and misused way too often!) But these guys aren't alone in not knowing who the real God is.... lots of Christians don't even realise that God is good, gracious, compassionate etc.

How are we going to tell them or show them that God is who he says he is?

By example.

And do you know who you can practice on?? The most annoying person you know. The most frustrating person you know. The nastiest, rudest, most obnoxious person you know. The person that hurt you, the person that belittles you and the person who nobody notices. The unpopular kids, the geeks, the gumbies, the people who are considered "nothing" in society. Don't pretend they don't exist, because they do.



Thank you God for revealing your goodness to me further. Thank you that we don't serve a angry, unpredictable God. These images cannot work with a compassionate, good and merciful God that you are. I'm glad that today you showed me more of the real you. Help me to show people your graciousness and goodness. I want to be a woman of grace and compassion. Help me do this. Amen

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

God is... #3

Acts 10:34 Then Peter replied, “I see very clearly that God shows no favoritism."

God has no favourites. Awesome.

Thus ends this post....

I'm kidding!!

This just confirms what I believe, that in the human race, that not one person is better than another in the eyes of God. He sees us all the same, as the wonderful people that he created, that have been redeemed, and his desire is to be in relationship with us, and for us to accept his love and gift of sacrifice. Yep. All of us are the same.

This can be hard to swallow when you see some others getting more "gifts" and "blessings" than others. This has nothing to do with God loving them more or showing favouritism. I think all of us are gifted and blessed in unique ways - some people's gifts and blessings are more obvious than some. I think the trick here is to stop looking at other people's gifts and blessings in envy, but to thank God for them for that person. Then look at your own gifts and blessings, and do the same! Thank God for them. I am thankful that I have gifting on my life. I am thankful that I have a beautiful family and such an amazing husband. I am thankful that God has given me passion, boldness, abilities, and other great things which I know that God will use for his glory and for his purposes.

It says in the Bible that God's ways are not our ways, so we can't always understand how God works but we can be certain of one thing - God does not play favourites. That his love for you and I is the same love that he has for everyone, no matter how bad, good, ugly, beautiful, smart, less-smart etc.. It's deep, it's passionate, it desires us and is something I want to know and appreciate for the rest of my days. How about you?

Lord, God, King. You amaze me every single day. Thank you that I don't have to fear you loving someone else more than me - I know that you love me so much I will never fully understand it. Thank you God for the blessings you give me and the giftings you have given me. I know I don't always appreciate them, and I get frustrated and impatient with the lack of use sometimes. I pray you will forgive me for that and help me to settle petal. :P Thank you Father for being such an amazing God. Amen

Monday, August 2, 2010

God is.... #2


Psalms 46:1-2 God is our refuge and strength, always ready to help in times of trouble. So we will not fear when earthquakes come and the mountains crumble into the sea.

Thank goodness I don't have to rely on my own strength to get through life. I don't think I could handle it! I really pity people who go through tough times and don't know God is there to lean on. It's a promise - that God is our refuge and strength. God promises refuge - which is defined as: safety: a safe place. We are promised safety. We are promised a safe place to cry, rant, rave, pray, beg, plead, mourn, etc. To me when I think of God's refuge, I think of his arms. I think of being scooped up into a big cuddle and given the freedom to express myself in safety.


Sometimes it's risky to express yourself to other people, because you can be rejected, scorned, mocked - or my ultimate peeve "You are a Christian, you can't feel like that". Some people can't handle extreme emotions and don't know how to respond to them. But God can handle it - and he knows exactly how to respond - he offers you his refuge and strength.

Note that it says always ready to help in times of trouble. ALWAYS. Repeat after me... ALWAYS. I like this. It means that God doesn't pick and choose when he helps you - he certainly picks out HOW he helps, but WHEN he helps is every single time. We don't have to fear going through the tough times alone. God is ready to help you. Just yell out! Even then sometimes you don't even have to yell out! There have been times in the treatment and therapy my son needs, I didn't even know what I needed, but God provided it with help and opening doors that normally wouldn't open without months on a waiting list. :) God will help you. You don't have to do life alone and in your own strength.


The last part of this verse to me symbolises life - rather than the literal earthquake and mountains crumbling into the sea. Has anyone ever seen a mountain crumble into the sea by chance? To me the earthquake and mountains crumbling symbolise life at times. Earthquakes can be very destructive. They shake the very core of the earth, creating havoc above. Not to mention the bi-products of earthquakes ie; tsunamis. Sometimes it feels like we are going through earthquakes in our lives, our very core gets shaken and our life begins to crumble. Terrible things happen, disaster strikes, our lives are never the same. After the quake our lives are unrecognisable (sometimes). But God promises us refuge and strength to get though these times. God promises to be there and to help you.


Life can deal out some hard stuff - but we don't have to fear it happening!!! We don't have to live our lives in fear of the harshness that comes with life. We don't have to fear the pain, the hurt, the confusion that comes with earthquakes in our lives. Because God is our refuge and strength. I'm glad of that! The energy that is spent in bracing yourself for the next rough patch in life can be spent on other things. We can completely rely on our God to be there for us, and to offer understanding, his help and his strength. Aren't you glad that you serve this amazing God?

Dear God, I'm so glad that you didn't create us and then leave us to our own devices. I'm so glad that you desire a relationship that encourages us to run to you when we go through the tough times. I'm so glad that you promise us your refuge, your strength and your help. You are such a great God and I am loving that you have revealed yourself just a bit more to me. The more I know about you, the more I love you. Amen.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

30 Days of Who God is.

For the month of August our church is doing a joint prayer and fasting and we are focussing on praying for the people that we know and love who are not yet believers.

I was thinking about this - if I had the opportunity to introduce someone to God and his love and grace.... what else would I be able to tell them about Him? When we introduce our friends to each other, we often give a little bit of history and something about the person. What they like, what they do, how you know them etc.

So if I was going to introduce God to someone, what would I say? I want to have as much knowledge about who God is, so when that opportunity arises, I can speak with confidence and speak biblical truth on who it is I actually serve and worship.


Also I believe that knowing more about the God I love and worship will take my worship to a whole new level. How much more I can love and appreciate and vocalise when I get to know him more intimately. I can't be limited by my understanding of who God is, but listen to Him through his Word as HE tells us who he is.

Numbers 23:19 God is not a man, so he does not lie. He is not human, so he does not change his mind. Has he ever spoken and failed to act? Has he ever promised and not carried it through?

I'm going to resist the temptation of making a small tiny dig to all the men out there "God is not a man and doesn't lie." I must say I had a giggle... but the naughty thought passed. :) back to what I really meant to say. This scripture really excites me, because I detest lying and detest being lied to. I can't stand it when I know I can't trust a person because they habitually lie. To me lying damages relationships right in the core. Distrust is not a firm foundation for relationships. But we can be confident in the fact that God does not lie to us. He is all honesty and goodness. We can build our relationship with God on a rock solid foundation of trust.


It says twice quite plainly that God is not human/man. He is not like us. Yes we are made in HIS image, not visa-versa. God does not inherit the traits of humans that make us less than desirable sometimes. God is God - pure, good and faithful. Sometimes it's easy to give God negative humanistic traits.... (I actually sound quite educated there don't I? :P) It's easy for the uninformed and ignorant to pass off God as someone quite cold, heartless and evil when something bad happens. I am thankful God is not human. If God was like me - who can be less than tolerant at times - the whole earth would have been wiped out before Noah I can tell you that much!! :) So let us rejoice in the fact that we do not serve another human, we serve an almighty and wonderful God who is GOOD!

The last part of this scripture is really comforting for me. God keeps his word. God keeps his promises. He won't change his mind. He won't withdraw his promise if I mess us, he doesn't change his mind - he is reliable and we can have faith that his word is GOOD! I'm incredibly happy that God has spoken to me, and this scripture cements my faith in him just a bit more. God has spoken therefore He WILL act. God has promised therefore his promises will come about.


There are not only the promises that God gives us personally, but the promises in His Word that we can dig up and trust that God will follow through. "He has given us His very great and precious promises..." 2 Peter 1:4

Now who feels like singing that old hymn, "Standing on the Promises of God"? :P

So in a nutshell, God is someone who can be trusted, who is reliable, who speaks truth at all time. So don't ask him if your butt looks big in those jeans, or if you are going bald. :P God can be trusted - and this can be hard to accept, especially if you have not been able to trust people before. Our experiences shape how we see God. So if you have been lied to or had your trust broken, over and over again, you have been given a precious promise - that God is trustworthy, faithful and true. You can trust in Him. He will never disappoint you.

Lord, I'm so thrilled that you can be trusted. I am so thrilled that I have a really good, kick-devil-butt scripture to use as a weapon for future attacks of lies that will be whispered into my soul. Thank you for revealing yourself to me further through your Word. I pray that you will open my eyes so I may see more of you and more of your glory. I pray that my spirit will be sensitive to your voice as you continue to teach me and show me more. I don't want to miss a thing! I'm so glad that you are not like humans, which makes me more desirous to be more like you! Amen

Wednesday, July 28, 2010


People of influence

Last night I was watching "World's Strictest Parents" - and the promotions came on for next week's episode and to my delight a familiar face appeared!


15 years ago 2 very special people - Grace and Mark - were placed in my life by a God who loves me and wanted me for Himself. I consider these people to be the bravest and most influential people in my life. They met me when I was in a very bad place. They met me when I was spewing venom from my mouth, abusive, rude, nasty, vindictive, utterly horrible. My heart was so wounded it was infected and it affected every part of my life. I was hurting so much that I just wanted to die and later on I would seriously consider this option.

Grace and Mark did not back away from me when everyone else did. They never condemned me or told me what I should be doing or acting. They loved me and accepted me as I was, taking me into their home on school holidays and weekends. They let me be part of their family and let me run around their property having a wonderful time! "Work" at that place was really good fun to me! Chasing sheep around, rounding up goats, checking dam levels - because there was plenty of opportunity to play!

The best thing they ever did was share their love of God - whom, at that time, I hated and resented. They never backed away from me or put me in the "too hard basket", but stood by me and loved me. They showed me, through their love and acceptance of me, that God loved me, right where I was, just the way I was. Hurt, venom, anger and all! 8 months after meeting them they introduced me to Jesus.


They gave me an excellent foundation of my faith by teaching me how to read the Bible and how important it was to hear from God through His Word. They taught me how to worship, how to build a relationship with God. Nothing was too hard for them. They drove 860kms to Youth concerts (we all lived in the Aussie Bush) and conferences to expose me to so much more.

I made some pretty dodgy decisions at this time - I engaged myself to someone I barely knew. I was never told I was stupid, silly and such a immature girl (which I think was the case here!!) - they just tried their best to influence me in their lovely way. Grace once told me that she felt I was going to marry someone tall, dark and handsome. She was right you know!! The man I married is tall, dark and very handsome!! :)

Life was terrible at this point - I still had such a terrible hurt in my heart, and it was effecting every aspect of my life. I was desperate to live the life Jesus intended for me, but I couldn't with this big sceptic wound inside me. When I couldn't bear it anymore and seriously considered ending my life to put an end to my pain - God intervened - and I was back with Grace and Mark, in their home. I don't know if they know this, but it was during this time that God began a transformational work in me. I was given space to grieve, cry, and release all those tears I had held in all those years. They still loved me, and ministered to me while God ripped out the terrible pain that had taken possession of my heart.

They will be one of the families that take in some troubled teens on the program "World's Strictest Parents"T They are such godly and loving people, and I can tell you right now, they are more than qualified to help the teens that come to stay with them. I hope this program shows their good heart, their love towards all who come to them in need, and their love of a God that they have ultimate faith in.

World's Strictest Parents airs on Channel 7, 7:30pm - Australia.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Consume me from the inside out.....

This morning my spirit has been crying out "consume me" - then God directed me to this music clip on you-tube which articulates MUCH better what my heart is desiring.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Love like that...

Ephesians 5:1-2 Watch what God does, and then you do it, like children who learn proper behavior from their parents. Mostly what God does is love you. Keep company with him and learn a life of love. Observe how Christ loved us. His love was not cautious but extravagant. He didn't love in order to get something from us but to give everything of himself to us. Love like that. (Message Version)

In the past when I think of imitating God in this way - I go to the Bible and try and learn from there. But this is saying "Watch what God DOES". It's great to look back in the Bible - the inspired Word of God - and learn from there. But it's also good to look at what God is doing today and what he will do. God is not dead, his actions have not ceased and we are not limited to the Bible in imitating God. We have our whole lives to watch what God does and imitate it.

"Keep company with Him and learn a life of love". This has impacted me so much today - I've always known that "by their fruits you shall know them" - and the first fruit of the spirit is love. By keeping company with God - by staying close, by having a deep and meaningful relationship with Him, I will learn this life of love. Pure and true love is a product of our relationship with God. Love in us is a response of God's love toward us. I love because I have been loved. 1 John 4:19 We love each other[a] because he loved us first.

Love Pictures, Images and Photos

His love is unselfish - the most pure form of love. And we are called to love this way - extravagantly! When I look at myself, my first thought is "I can never love that greatly, I'm not capable, I am too flawed..." - but as I continue to walk in Him, I will learn. Each day my love for others will deepen and extend, because of God within me. My love for others is a product of the love I receive. My love for others indicates if I am keeping company with God and learning a life of love.

Lord, thank you for speaking your Word deep into my spirit. I want to grow from this. This has encouraged me to pursue you more and walk closer with you. I pray that you will keep revealing yourself and your love to me and I will develop a deeper knowledge of that love as I learn from you. I want to be more aware of what you are doing today so I can learn more and more about you. Thank you for your unselfish and beautiful love that is shown to me every single moment.

Monday, July 5, 2010

He calls me Friend.

Do you have a special friend? A best friend? A friend that you enjoy hanging with? A friend you enjoy chatting with? Friends are great! They are a beautiful reminder that we are created to relate to one another and love one another. When God created man, he recognized that it was not good for man to be alone. He knew we needed more than just Him. He knew we were created for companionship and a desire to be with people. Some people are geared more that way than others, but all of us need other people.

laugh :) Pictures, Images and Photos

But not only can we appreciate and love the human friends around us, but we can embrace and enjoy the friendship that Jesus has to offer us.

John 15:9-17 “I have loved you even as the Father has loved me. Remain in my love. When you obey my commandments, you remain in my love, just as I obey my Father’s commandments and remain in his love. I have told you these things so that you will be filled with my joy. Yes, your joy will overflow! This is my commandment: Love each other in the same way I have loved you. There is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you slaves, because a master doesn’t confide in his slaves. Now you are my friends, since I have told you everything the Father told me. You didn’t choose me. I chose you. I appointed you to go and produce lasting fruit, so that the Father will give you whatever you ask for, using my name. This is my command: Love each other.

I love how The Message version puts the first part: "I've loved you the way my Father has loved me." Oh wow! OH WOW! It's so amazing to be reminded of just how much we are loved. There are no conditions placed on this love - we are given it freely - it is not with-held from us unless we bring 50 people to Jesus and give 10 grand to the church. It's given to us.

We are encouraged to remain in his love by obeying his commands - which was to love one another. Why is loving each other so important? I believer our love of each other is a response to the love that we receive from Christ. We love because we are loved. When we fully understand the love of Christ we can't help but love one another.

Jesus expressed his love for our enjoyment. He wanted us to be filled with joy over the fact that we are loved. I don't know about you, but when I remember all Christ has done for me. When I remember the goodness of God as I have been through the most difficult parts of my life. When I remember that Jesus loved me BEFORE I loved Him, even at my very worst, I can't help but be thrilled to bits. This love-fest makes me want to love everyone.

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We didn't choose Jesus - he had already chosen us! This excites me! This really does! So even before I fell on my face before God, repenting, accepting Christ into my life, Jesus was already there, waiting for me. I wasn't the one waiting for Him! You were chosen by Christ! You were chosen to be his friend. :) TOTALLY COOL!

Now you are my friends....
I have a friend that I feel very at ease with. When I am in her home, I can go get myself a drink, give my kids something to drink, cook in her kitchen, borrow her kids clothes if my kids mess themselves, rummage around in her cupboards for whatever I need. I've often joked that one day I'll turn up at their house in my PJ's. They've responded with "We don't care. Come in your PJ's." Friends are people you can relax with, be comfortable with, share with, laugh with and enjoy. Jesus calls us his friends. So we can relax! Chill out! We don't need to come to him with pious sounding prayers and Christianese. We don't have to be stiff and uncomfortable in his presence - he's our friend! He's called you friend! He's called me friend!

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What is your response to this?

Lord Jesus, friend and love! Thank you for your love! Thank you that I don't have to deserve it or earn it, I have it. Thank you for calling me your friend. You are my friend - the very best friend I have. I pray that your Word will speak into someone's life today - and help them realise just how treasured and wonderful they are in your eyes. Help me to love other's with the same love you gave, unselfish and sacrificing.


Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Be still and know...

It's been quiet around here. Quiet in my soul and spirit. Just quiet. Quiet is good.

Psalm 46 - the passage where "Be still and know that I am God" comes from, you see such imagery. It's loud, there are wars, rivers, earthquakes, storms, crumbling nations, God's voice is thundering, hills are melting - it's just chaos. Life can get like that for us, where our world around is screaming and loud and in your face. But in times of chaos, we are encouraged to be still. Let our spirits rest in the knowledge of a good, gracious and glorious God. Know that he is God. KNOW it.

In this stillness, we are able to center our spirits and minds on the one who created us, saved us and loves us so much. The one who is not chaotic like the world around us.

I'm struggling with words today - but I have in my mind a beautiful vision that God gave me, that may explain what I mean better.

Picture if you will a raging river, water rushing by, it's force is strong, it's loud, white foam, spray, the water tosses tree logs about as if they were twigs. Imagine you in that same river, being tossed about, swallowing water, having your body slammed against whatever you came across.

In the middle of that din, picture a rock, and you stand on that rock as the water rushes by. "Be still and know that I am God." You can only be still in that environment, when your feet are firmly planted on God and in God.

Be still - in these moments of stillness, is when we get a real perspective of God's glory and goodness. It's hard to focus on God's goodness when we are being tossed about like rag dolls. In that still place we can regroup, and recenter our lives.


Thankyou Lord for your goodness and your grace. Thank you Lord you love me and treasure me unconditionally and continually. Lord as I regroup and realign my life with you, I pray you will speak to me, guide me and show me your ways. Thank you that you provide a place of peace in this chaotic world. I want to use it more and make you my epi-center every single day. I pray that those who read this entry today will feel the tug into a place of peace and quiet to mediate on you and know that you are God - a good and glorious God!

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Placed on my heart.

These scriptures have been placed on my heart recently

"My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,' says the Lord.'For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways,And My thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-9

Doesn't this verse excite you? God's thoughts are higher than your thoughts! How God sees you, is not how you see you! That can come as a relief to some! :P What we think we are capable of and what we think God has in store for us is only a glimpse of the reality. This means we have only glimpsed a small portion of what God is doing and will do in our lives and in the lives of other people!

This stirs my spirit with such an enthusiasm and a fresh awe of the glory and amazingness of God (Yes I know it's not a real word!)

To You, O Lord, I lift up my soul. O my God, I trust in You....Show me Your ways, O Lord; Teach me Your paths.
Lead me in Your truth and teach me, for You are the God of my salvation;
On You I wait all the day." Psalm 25:1-5

Is this your hearts cry? Teach me, show me, lead me, I wait on you... I desperately want God's leading in my life. I am desperate for him to teach me and prepare me for the things he has in store for me. Prepare me for witnessing to my friends, teach me what to say, show me where I can serve. If we go through our Christian walk without wanting to be taught and lead, we are going nowhere. We are called to some sort of ministry to God and the Church - every single one of us. God has given us gifts and talents - how are we using them and developing them to serve God with? Are we looking to God to show us how we can serve him, or are we blocking our ears and not listening?

Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.

Not sure what path you are taking? Not sure where you are going? Trust in the Lord... that is your road map. Faith in the Almighty - and seeking HIS will. The promise is that he will show you the paths he has mapped out for you.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

I now have a button...


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My hearts desire is not to big note myself or make myself huge in the Christian blogging community, I just want to share God's Word and bless others as they run the race that is set before them.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

I just wanted to share this. It's so good to remember that God delights in me. In a world full of approval seeking in various ways, it's good to know that God delights in me.... not because of what I do, what I say, how I do it etc... it's just because. :)

Those in Whom God Delights
TGIF Today God Is First Volume 1, by Os Hillman
"His pleasure is not in the strength of the horse, nor His delight in the legs of a man; the Lord delights in those who fear Him, who put their hope in His unfailing love." - Psalm 147:10

Mammon and power are the ruling strongholds of the workplace. If you possess either of these, then you will be courted by those who serve the workplace in hopes of increasing market share. It is a competitive environment that often gives way to decisions and actions that are dictated by the financial bottom line. A recent newspaper article stated that employers are requiring workers to put more time into their jobs, often requiring weekend work in order to be more competitive. For the Christian worker, this brings pressures on the family and will result in "lost market share" in the spiritual realm.

The Lord has a different measuring stick. The Lord is not impressed with your ability or what you can do for Him. Only one thing delights Him-people who fear Him and put their hope in His unfailing love. What does it mean to fear God and place our hope in His love? It means we acknowledge that God is the source of all that we are. He is the one who gives us the ability to work, plan, and execute. He does not want us to look to our abilities, but to His abilities. Sometimes it is difficult to balance these two perspectives. However, if we ask God to show us how to maintain this balance, He will do it. Put your hope in His unfailing love today. Then you will know that your heavenly Father is looking on you as a proud Father.

Today God Is First (TGIF) devotional message, Copyright by Os Hillman, Marketplace Leaders.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

I know the plan.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.

This scripture has really been rolling around in my mind and spirit lately. I don't know about you but it feels my heart with so much hope. Not only does it amaze me that God knows the plans... but he actually HAS plans!

I have plans for my kids. I have plans to help them achieve their dreams, help them become wonderful people and respected and loved members of society. I have plans for their education. I have plans because I love them and care about them and their lives. I have never ever plotted against them. I have never had evil plans for them. Evil and love do not go together. Evil actions do not match up with true love. Evil is evil, God is love.

God has plans for his kids. He has amazing things he wants for us, and he has it all planned out. Do you get a picture of a God who is so excited about his kids? Can you see him writing in his plans for each of his kids, sharing his thoughts and excitement with his Son and Spirit?
What also makes me so thrilled about this is that he KNOWS the plans. Every single detail has been thought out. The whens, wheres, whys and hows are all sorted, God has it all sorted. Which means that worrying about the whens, wheres etc is a pointless exercise. If it's God's plan, then he KNOWS the plan - and usually more indepth that we do!

God does not plan evil to come into our lives. He just doesn't. He doesn't sit up there and say "Hmm... now I am going to give this person a disease, then it will be used for my glory." God does not plan disasters FOR us... but because of this world and how it is, disasters still happen. But God does not plan for this to happen. This is such a relief to me, knowing that God did not cause the pain in my life and the trials that I live. It's not part of HIS plan. His plans are to give us a future and a hope. His plans are perfect and so amazing!

I am so blessed to know a few of God's plans for me. I know where God is leading - but I don't know the whole plan... just a snippet. It's wonderful to know that God has made these plans, not just so I can serve him, but because he loves me! The more I know about God, the more my passion and love for him is stirred within me.


God is such an amazing God!

Thank you Lord for showing me new truths from a scripture I know back to front. Thank you that you still speak afresh and new words to me. I love how it jumps out at me and strikes me deep in my heart, with new meaning and enabling me to grow and learn.

Psalm 119:160 The very essence of your words is truth;

John 1:1 In the beginning the Word already existed. The Word was with God, and the Word was God

Psalm 119:105 Your word is a lamp to guide my feet and a light for my path

Romans 10:17 Everything in the Scriptures is God's Word. All of it is useful for teaching and helping people and for correcting them and showing them how to live.

Friday, May 7, 2010

Just a tad excited....

... my 6 year old gave her life to Jesus!



Help me Lord to be a good example and a spiritual guide where I can be to Mop. Help me encourage her in her relationship with you. Show me how. I pray you will give her teachers, her Sunday School teachers and anyone else who has spiritual input - that you will equip them to teach her and guide her. I pray that she will hunger after you and your word. I pray that her age won't deter her from developing her relationship with you and walking her faith journey.

Thankyou Lord that the seeds that have been sown were harvested!


Monday, April 26, 2010

It pays to listen when you pray!

Last night I was praying as I was going to sleep about our car situation. We were really stuck - we couldn't repair it, we couldn't sell it until we paid what was owing on it. It was a right old shamozzle. The mechanic tried to find a motor and rang all over the country, looking for one. There was 1 available... and it was so expensive to buy, let alone get it put in our car. We would never be able to sell our car for what it would cost us in repairs. To cut a long story short - it was looking like we would have to come up with $16,000 to pay for the car and then start looking for a new one. That's right. SIXTEEN THOUSAND DOLLARS. To come up with that money, we would have to sell our caravan.

So that's the problem. We were reeling. What do we do?

"God what do I pray for? What do I ask for? I don't want to be the spoilt child that keeps getting bailed out. I don't want to treat you like a genie."

"What do you need?" was the reply.

"We need our car either fixed or replaced, that won't kill us financially. And I don't want to sell my caravan. I love that caravan!" I replied. I spent a few moments talking about the whole situation and I didn't know what to do.

"Call _____" and God gave me a name of a business.

"Eh??" I replied. That business name went straight into my heart.

"They will help you. You won't lose your caravan. Everything is going to be ok."

I listened to the deep breathing of my husband, who was sleeping beside me. Hmmm... I'm going to look like a real idiot if I wake him up and tell him to call this place. "Don't call. It wasn't God. Don't be so stupid." I heard the enemy whisper to me.

My husband stirred suddenly and whispered to me "Goodnight babe."

"Honey!" I spoke quickly and I told him about my prayer.

This morning my husband, obedient to God, made the call to the business.
"We can't help you. But we know who can, and this person is who we deal with." and they gave him a number. My husband called them... and low and behold, there was an engine for our car!! It would not cost us what we were quoted before to repair. To get it fitted it would cost us just over $4000. That's right FOUR THOUSAND. Now 4 grand is still a lot of money... but it's a LOT better than 16 grand!! Not only that, the engine has done 45,000 less kms than our old engine, so when it comes to resale - we will be able to get more for it! :)


God promised - and he came through, in 8 hours!

Jehovah Jireh!

My God provides. My God works miracles.


God. YOU ROCK!! Thanks so much for pulling us out of such a terrible situation. Thank you for speaking loud and clear and directing us to the right people. Thank you that you care about your kids and their problems.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Oil of passion

Yesterday it was if my Pastor was preaching just to me. He spoke about stretching your boundaries and stepping out and doing something that is different to what you are comfortable with. He said our inability to do it is not an excuse, because we have the ability to learn, and if it's God-inspired he will equip us and help us.

I've been really thinking and praying about this whole new calling on my life and this really spoke to me. "Ok Lord. Let's do it. You have to help me, because I am not sure what I need to do - but I am willing."
At that moment I got a vision. It was a big "bubble" of oil on the inside of me. It was getting bigger and bigger very rapidly. It was HUGE! God showed me that this was HIS passion for social injustice growing inside of me - filling me. Then the bubble exploded, and oil went everywhere. It didn't just sit on the surface though. It was quickly absorbed into me - it got into every little space, nook and cranny. It sank into me. God showed me that this will be part of me - this passion and compassion will permeate me and consume me.


Wow! What a word from God!
It's so good to get confirmation and clear direction on which path to walk. I know it's going to be a tough road ahead of me. But God will be with me and walk with me, showing me the best way to go about all this.

I meet with our Pastors this week and I will be talking to them about this and sharing with them what God is saying and doing in my life.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Angels of Mercy

This month has been quite hard on myself and my family. Cutting a long story short, while we were on holiday our car (which is very reliable usually and well looked after) died in the middle of nowhere.

But what got me is that we were in a strange place and knew no-one - yet God bought people into our lives that would help us and show us kindness and favor. We first broke down in a small town - we could have broken down an hour before, or an hour later - or even in the middle of nowhere... No. We broke down IN the town. We were looked after by a mechanic who did his utmost to help us. He and his wife barely knew us at all, yet they offered us the use of their own car to drive 4 hours away to our destination. They would tow our dead car down and then tow their own car home again. Who does that? Who looks at a family and trusts them immediately and gives them their car to use - especially nowadays? How can their hearts be filled with such compassion and kindness to perfect strangers?


Because the car was dead, we had to abandon our caravan in the town. The same man and wife offered to tow the caravan to their home and let it stay in the driveway until we were in a position to come and pick it up again. The wife emptied out our fridge so it wouldn't smell. They went above and beyond what is expected from Roadside Assistance.

After the car was repaired... twice (don't ask!) , we headed back to the town to pick up our caravan. On the way we noticed that the air conditioning in the car stopped working. We groaned. What next??? This was seriously ridiculous!! We arrived at the town, the mechanic's wife ushered us into her beautiful home, served up chocolate biscuits for the kids and pulled out lovely toys for them to play with and the mechanic stuck his head under the bonnet of our car and repaired our air-conditioning problem. No charge.

We were so well taken care of and felt so incredibly blessed to run into these people. I have never experienced such kindness from strangers before. I felt humbled. Do I do this? Do I show love, care and compassion like this?

Cutting another long story short, we broke down again... for good this time. We were stuck in a small town outside Sydney while we waited for our car to be looked at again. The caravan was towed to a caravan park near the mechanics and I was left with the three children while my husband went to sort out the car. The two couples behind us came over immediately when they saw I was alone. "Can we help you? Can I set up your van for you? Can I put the roof up for you? (A very heavy job) Don't worry about the kids, this is a safe place. Do you need me to get you some groceries? If you ever need a ride somewhere, please let me know." The caravan park owners only charged minimum amount for the site, so we were financially blessed as well. While my husband was away, busy, my son was getting frustrated with his bike - the pedal kept falling off. The caravan park owner saw this and took it to his workshop and repaired it. My son idolised the man from then on. (Poor man! Had a little boy following him about asking him what he was doing every 5 minutes!)

Again perfect strangers coming to our aid. These people were not being kind for any other reason than they were kind people. They didn't want anything in return. They didn't expect anything in return. They showed us compassion, kindness and empathy - not because they wanted to shove something down our throat later. No reason. No motive. They were just beautiful people.

This humbles me. Truly it does! It was as if kindness was bottled up and handed to me. Not kind because they SHOULD be... but because they are.

Kindess is one of the fruits of the spirit, and I feel that sometimes I show kindness because I SHOULD... not because that is what is within me.

Father, thankyou for taking good care of us, through the most unexpected people. Thank you for each person who helped us and I pray you will bless them, bless their lives and that the kindness they showed us, will be rewarded abundantly. Help me to remember them often and help me follow their example in showing kindness where I can, fill me with your compassion and love to people I don't know. Thank you for this valuable lesson in such a tough time.

PS: What ended up happening is we had to fly home and abandon our car and caravan and truck them both home later. We still owe money on the car - so have to pay that off before we can get rid of it and get another car. We are in no financial position to do that at this time. Please keep us in your prayers. We need a miracle here.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

The Shack

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Has anyone else read this book?

I just put it down and I'm absolutely gobsmacked. It has changed me forever. It has changed how I relate with God forever - in a good way! I can't tell you what it's about, because it will ruin it for you, but if you like a good book, with simple truths, with amazing imagery and you are ready to have your conception of God blown out of the water - then this book is for you. I literally laughed and cried my way through this whole book. Not many people have the ability to do that to me with written words. I finished it in 3 days - which for me to finish a book in that time with three children and a very packed schedule is a miracle.

Read it. Be introduced to God as he really is, not how YOU think he is! You won't be sorry.


Sunday, March 14, 2010

God sent me an email.

Ok Ok OK! I get the picture. God is certainly making it very clear. VERY clear.

I was going through my email account and going to delete a heap of emails that I subscribe to. I have stuff I need to do, I won't have time to read all these now. So I began to delete. I selected "THE FIRST REQUIREMENT OF MINISTRY" and was about to delete the lot when I felt in my spirit "HOLD IT!! Read that email. Read it." I tried to reason and argue but the nagging was strong. Read that email. The title didn't really appeal to me, it didn't speak to me... but that voice certainly did! So I opened it up and this is what I read.

The First Requirement of Ministry
(Taken from TGIF Today God Is First Volume 1, by Os Hillman 03-14-2010

"The priests are in mourning, those who minister before the Lord." - Joel 1:9b

The first requirement for being used by God in the life of others is to mourn on their behalf. We must identify with their pain and suffering. Each of us must be broken for others first.

In order to be fully used by God in the workplace, we need to understand what breaks God's heart. When we understand what breaks God's heart, we are able to mourn on behalf of a grieving person, or a nation we are called to serve. What breaks God's heart? When we begin to answer this question, we begin the first step to becoming instruments of change for those things that are important to God. Perhaps it is an overemphasis in our own talent and abilities, or lack of complete trust in Jesus. Perhaps it is the lack of respect for human life that leads to the killing of innocent babies. Perhaps it is the deceit and pride that often rule the workplace of commerce. Or perhaps it is the strife and divisions among His own Body that grieve Him most. When we begin to mourn over our own sins in these areas, God begins to use us as instruments of righteousness to affect these things. It was only when God let me see my own sins in the workplace and how they broke His heart that I began to be an instrument for His purposes.

Today, ask God to show you what things in your world are breaking His heart. Then see how He might want you to be the priest to affect for Him. The first step is identification with what breaks God's heart.

Today - God sent me an email. :)


Break my heart for what breaks yours.
Show me how to love like you have loved me.
Everything I am for your Kingdom's cause.

Keep revealing to me the things that are hurting you. That are breaking your heart. Make me cry for the things that make you cry. I want to feel your heart. I want to feel what you feel when you look at your beloved creation.

New direction.

A few weeks ago, I felt a shift in my thinking and in my spirit. While having home group, we were brain storming about what we would like to see in the church. I suggested community action - actually leaving the church pews to go and make a difference in the community. Its all well and good to say we need to, but someone needs to actually make it happen! I was surprised at the passionate words that roared from my spirit. Not long afterwards, I became aware of some gross social injustice that made me sick. Me lecturer made some reference to the exploited children in the cocoa trade. My spirit lurched - so I immediately fired up Google and began to read and research.

What is the cost of real chocolate?

I felt considerable compassion for the poor children who are worked and worked, starved, beaten and exploited. I mourned for their lack of freedom and education. I thanked God my own children were safe and free with me and protected from monstrosities like that. After considerable discussion and research with my husband, we made the decision that we were not going to support the companies that purchased cocoa beans from non-fairtrade farms or other ethically run cocoa farms. I thought that my spirit would rest after that, we are doing all we can, we are only 5 people but we are going to make a difference... however small.

But no. God didn't allow me to get away with that. Over the last few weeks he has injected my spirit with a fire and a passion for the social injustice in this world. Not just overseas but in my own country. My spirit is stirring like a whirlpool. My husband said: "The church needs education about these gross injustices. What they need is someone with good strong leadership skills, and the ability to teach to raise awareness. Someone like you maybe?"
I was stunned - but something resonated in my spirit.
I then spoke to my Mum about this chocolate issue, and she stood with me and is refusing to support the companies that turn a blind eye to the children that are being exploited. She said to me: "You should be making this known to the church, God has given you the ability to speak and boldness..."
Hmmm... so I prayed. "God if this is the direction you want me to take, you need to tell me, because this is not something I know a great deal about."

That Sunday the sermon was about being an influence. God spoke loud and clear. It is not enough for me to merely stop supporting non-fair trade companies. It's not enough to stand on my soap box and tutt and say, "that's terrible." God wants me to take it further. The Pastor made reference to Matthew 25:35-40 Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Enter, you who are blessed by my Father! Take what's coming to you in this kingdom. It's been ready for you since the world's foundation. And here's why: I was hungry and you fed me, I was thirsty and you gave me a drink, I was homeless and you gave me a room, I was shivering and you gave me clothes, I was sick and you stopped to visit, I was in prison and you came to me.'

"Then those 'sheep' are going to say, 'Master, what are you talking about? When did we ever see you hungry and feed you, thirsty and give you a drink? And when did we ever see you sick or in prison and come to you?' Then the King will say, 'I'm telling the solemn truth: Whenever you did one of these things to someone overlooked or ignored, that was me—you did it to me.'

I heard a whisper in my spirit: "Who is going to speak for me?"

God plainly said, it's not enough - YOU are the church. If 300 people hear what you have to say, and 300 people write letters and fire off emails to the companies who are at fault and start making a roar about it, they are going to listen. But what if those 300 people told 5 people each? Told 5 other people that this is going on in this world, and it's not acceptable. What if those other 5 people began emailing and writing letters to the company? 1500 emails/letters. 1500 voices crying out on behalf on the many children will make it known to the company and share holders are going to hear. That is 1500 voices from 1 church - what if you spoke to 10 churches.
It's time for the church to stop spectating - it's time for them to rise and make their voices heard and known. They need to stop leaving it to the Christian political groups and the crazy religious fanatics.

Joshua did not yell by himself when he was at Jericho. One little voice would sound so piddly and so useless - I bet the army tucked away inside Jericho wouldn't have even heard him. But they sure did hear when the entire army let out a roar. The unethical companies WILL hear if we are persistant and loud enough. They need to hear the voices of the godly to help them make godly discisions. We cannot influence our world by keeping our salt in the salt shaker - we need to sprinkle it in all the areas we need to influence.

God has equipped me with the gift of teaching. God has equipped me with motivational skills. God has equipped me with boldness and I will not skirt around the issues delicately. God wants me to speak for those who can't speak for themselves. God wants me to bring the issues that are in the world into the church so instead of thinking about possibly making a difference in their world, they have to the opportunity to rise and do it!

I'm ready God. I'll do anything you say and go anywhere you lead. Please show me how to do this, and show me who to talk to and what to say. Fill me with your spirit - annoint my words and lips. I'm scared at this new calling, but I know you are with me. Help me. Help!!!!
Keep this fire burning in my spirit, fuel it, flame it so that your people will know that I am your ambassador. Please start opening doors for me as well as equipping me to go forward from here.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Unfailing love

Thank you Father that even though you are so great, so amazing, so powerful, so big - you hold me in the palm of you hand, you love me, you are interested in me and want me. Thank you for the precious gift of your Son, and through Him, I am justified and set free. Thank you for loving me so much and seeing me as valuable and incredibly precious.

Thank you Lord for talented, creative people who write songs, and make the words that I can't seem to form. Thank you that through others I can express what is in my heart.


Saturday, February 20, 2010

A word in season

Today in church, I was enjoying our time of corporate worship and just spending time in God's presence. I worshiped, I praised, I welcomed such a wonderful sense of God's presence in the place. Then I was still. I just sat at the feet of Christ, in a sense, and just listened and allowed my spirit to hear Him.

I felt that familiar niggle - what if you are destined to be a nobody? What if you have had your day and you will do nothing for God ever again? You have tickets on yourself thinking that you could do ANYTHING for God. Bah... Satan. You think I don't know you? You think I don't recognize a jab from the enemy? Well listen here - I have faith in my God. God is handling it - so you can toddle off and annoy someone else.

My heart whispered... "when God? I know you are taking me through fire, to refine me and to prepare me. I'm at peace with that.... but I keep remembering the promise. I can't forget this. I can't let it go. It keeps coming into my thoughts. When?"

As I poured my heart out to God... I heard God start to impart and start to speak to me.

"Write this down."

So I sat down, in the darkened auditorium, and began to write.

Peace Skipper. Peace. Be at peace in every area of your life. Do not be afraid. I am with you. I am leading you. I hear your heart's cry. I hear you. I know you. I am leading. Have peace my daughter. Be at peace. Those dreams I have planted will happen. Peace. Do not worry. I haven't forgotten you. Everything will come to pass. Let your heart rest in me. Fully. Not just in certain areas. Every area. Trust me. Trust IN me. And be at peace.

Thank you Father for speaking to me. Thank you for your continuing comfort and reassurance that it's all ok and I'm walking this journey with you. Thank you for not leaving me to flounder - that your hand is there holding me, and leading me, and giving me a good shove in the right direction when need be. Thank you for being so patient with me.

Friday, February 19, 2010

New layout for new part of my journey

I know I have been rather quiet here lately - but the way my life is at the moment is all consuming.

I decided to change my blog layout - because a change is always good - but also to reflect where I am at in my journey with God. At the moment every single step I take - I am doing it with such faith that God knows exactly what he is doing and where we are going - because frankly I have no clue. But I'm not worried - because where he leads I know it's a good place. I know that God has a greater purpose and plan and I am just resting, waiting for it to be made known. I know that God will be glorified in every single area of my life - that has been the cry of my heart - and God has honored that. God is going to use this time to extend his kingdom, to allow me to minister to more people and share the goodness of God.

The peace I feel in my heart astounds me. But I rest easily and quietly in the hands of our loving God, truly believing that all things work together for good...

... because I walk by faith and not by sight.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

It's what you say behind their back

Romans 12:9-10 Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves

I read this a few days ago and I have been really meditating on it. Love must be sincere. It must be real. When we are called to love one another - it means REALLY love one another. I hate knowing that someone is "loving" me to my face, but on the inside are thinking otherwise. It's not a sincere love. The fake smile, the fake cheerful voice, the fake care about how you are doing.... fake. Fake. Fake. But our love is supposed to be real.

One way that we can show our love for one another - and it's a love language as well - words of affirmation. Honor each other. It's amazing how much your attitude towards someone can change when you start to think about their positive attributes. You may not get along with them. They may irritate you. They may abuse you. They may hurt you. But we aren't called to love JUST the people who deserve it... because in the end, no one would be loved. We are called to just love.

Genuine and sincere love does not just honor people when they are present - in fact that can often give the impression of insincerity. Our love for one another is revealed by what we say behind their back. Is it gossip? Is it nasty? Is it rude? Does it build them up? Does it tear them down? Does it promote harmony? Would they be hurt by what we say? We can also show our love for our brothers and sisters in Christ by speaking about them behind their back.
"Oh that Jenny... have you heard her sing? Amazing voice!!"
"Naomi has such a passion for kids ministry. I really admire that about her."
"Phil has such a good heart."


In Romans 14:9 it says "So then, let us aim for harmony in the church and try to build each other up."

We build each other up with our words and our deeds. We can destroy people just as easily. If our love is sincere we will build them up by honoring them. If your love is insincere - you won't acheive anything of the kind.

Loving one another does not mean you have to be best friends with them. It doesn't mean you even have to have a relationship with them. Some people it's unwise to be friends with - especially those who abuse, use and hurt on a regular basis. But that doesn't mean you have to stop loving them and honoring them.

So try it... go on! I dare you. Show your committment to loving one another with sincerity by vocalising sincere honor. Love one another and speak about them behind their back.. in a good way.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

God is gracious

Numbers 6:24-26 ‘May the Lord bless you and protect you. May the Lord smile on you and be gracious to you. May the Lord show you his favor and give you his peace.’

What an amazing piece of God's Word this is - full of blessing, promise and covering. I was reminded of it today as I experienced God's blessing and favour. I never asked for it. I never said "God go before me - and provide for me in this area." because I have no idea what it is I need and what I should be asking God for. But this just shows me that God is going before me, even though I never asked, showing me his grace, showing me his favour and giving me peace of mind - before I even start worrying about it!!

I don't know if you remember, but my son has special needs - and needs quite a bit of therapy. This week this therapy has increased and we have been seeing 3 professionals. Each of them have shown me that God has his hand on my son and is showing so much grace and favour to us. I have no way of knowing what my son will need in the future, I am taking it one week at a time, one day at a time. But the professionals that are working with him are opening up opportunities and resources that I had no idea existed!! They are tapping into funding for me and are making it possible for me to get financial help from the government to help pay for his therapies.

God has gone before me, seen what my son needed, and started making it all possible for me. 9 month waiting lists are shrinking to 2 months. 6 month waiting lists are not bothering me, because I know that one of his therapists are trying so hard to make it happen faster. Testing, assesments, etc are all falling into place and happening alot faster. God is providing for our every need.

Today this scripture really spoke to me when one of my son's therapists said to me. "You think about what E needs - before he even needs it, and set it up so it's not a problem for him when he comes to that place." God has done the exact same thing. He's thought about what we need before we even need it and has set it up to happen so when we do come to the place of need - it's already there. But not only has he given us our needs, but has gone over and above what we need. We are being offered resources and more experts than we "need" - these are all just bonuses!! God has smiled down on us, and because he loves me and my son - he has blessed us, shown us his favour and given me peace. All of this is in the Lord's hands - and I have no need to worry. God is going before me and paving the way. He's smiling down on us!

Isn't that an awesome image? God smiling down on us?

Fully Rely On God Pictures, Images and Photos

Dear Lord, thank you for the blessing that you are pouring into our lives in abundance. Thank you for recognising that I haven't the foggiest idea what I am doing - and thank you for assuring me in practical ways that you DO know what you are doing. Thank you for the priveledge of being Mother to my son. Thank you for making this whole process a lot easier than it could have been. I see so many other special needs kids struggling to get the help they need and I am just so incredibly greatful that you are giving us the very best of the best. I pray your blessing over the team of professionals who care for him - I pray you give them wisdom and bless them abundantly.

Thursday, January 21, 2010


I'm sorry, I've been MIA. Missing in action. There is so much going on in our lives right now so I haven't been able to study the Word much - not to worry - I'm still mulling over Moses. :)

I'm encouraged though - not cast down with guilt because in Psalm 1 it says
But they delight in the law of the Lord, meditating on it day and night.
They are like trees planted along the riverbank, bearing fruit each season. Their leaves never wither,and they prosper in all they do.

I can live, grow and learn from scripture I read last week. I can dwell on it, think about it and pray about it. I love that there is life in the Word - and part of meditating on God's word is to get as much of the goodness out of it as possible. I love that God can speak to me at any time through his Word - and I'm not condemned and made to feel guilty for not reading the Bible today.

Don't get me wrong, it's good to read the Bible - but God isn't sitting up in heaven with a huge stick, ready to strike those bad Christians who aren't doing a three hour Bible study every day. But try to meditate on God's word - "Day and night" and get as much out of it as you possibly can.

Hopefully soon I'll be back once things slow down over here.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

An Award

Daphi-dills has awarded me and my blog this:


Awww thankyou Daph! :)
It's nice to know that this blog is appreciated and a blessing to at least one person.

xxx Skipper

Thursday, January 7, 2010

The Lord Reigns, let the earth rejoice!

Last night as I nestled into bed, with my Bible, ready to start my study - when I felt my spirit say "I feel like a Psalm." Just before I start flipping the pages to the middle of the Bible, I felt Psalm 97 drop into my heart.

1 The Lord is king!
Let the earth rejoice!
Let the farthest coastlands be glad.
2 Dark clouds surround him.
Righteousness and justice are the foundation of his throne.


11 Light shines on the godly,
and joy on those whose hearts are right.
12 May all who are godly rejoice in the Lord
and praise his holy name!

God spoke to me through these words. He is king over all. He is Lord of all. He is king when we are in pain. He is Lord during our circumstances in life. He reigns when you are the depths of despair. He is Lord, king and ruler over all!
There are things that I am not going to always completely understand - there are mysteries that I am not to know the answers to yet - but I do know that righteousness and justice is the foundation of his throne. That's all I need to know for now.
Because God reigns, this is a cause for rejoicing! This is a cause for joy! The Lord reigns - he's got it all under control. When things spiral out of control in our lives, it's out of OUR control - but not God's!
I love the last verse - it's a call to worship our Lord. I love calls to worship - it makes my spirit soar!


Thankyou Lord that you are King of Kings and Lord of Lords. Thankyou that you reign over all - that nothing is exempt from this. Lord I accept your kingship over my life. You reign and I will worship you all of my days. Thankyou for showing me that there is not one area on this earth or in my life that you are not King over. That not one thing will happen without your knowledge. I pray that you will give me more understanding of you as I continue to read your Word. Amen

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Attitude during the tough times.

Exodus 17:1 - 2 - At the Lord’s command, the whole community of Israel left the wilderness of Sin and moved from place to place. Eventually they camped at Rephidim, but there was no water there for the people to drink. So once more the people complained against Moses. “Give us water to drink!” they demanded.

God sometimes leads us into difficult places. If Christianity shielded us from bad times, how would we grow? How would our faith in God increase? What would be the use of praying for God to supply our needs, because God was already doing it? If God shielded us from tough times and from trials in our lives, if God did everything we wanted and gave us what we wanted WHEN we wanted it - can you imagine how spoilt we would become?

God lead the Israelites into a waterless desert. It was for a purpose. God doesn't do anything willy-nilly. His attitude is "How can I torture my people today? I know! I'll make them thirst for a while!" We don't know what the purpose was - it didn't say. It just said "At the Lord's command..."

These deserts we encounter in life are there to grow us.... or not. We alone decide. It's our attitude during these times that will decide if we grow or not. Do we blame God or do we accept the challenges that come our way? Do we behave with grace and continue to have faith in our Almighty Father that there is a great purpose in this? Do we whinge? Whine? Why me? Why is this happening to me? What kind of God does this to his people?

Oh. WOW!
As I typed that last statement - God spoke to me.
As you may know, I am a rape child. I have never ever figured out WHY God would allow something so terrible like that to happen to my Mum. WHY did I have to be born that way? What kind of God allows this sort of thing to happen to his kid? I often think "God you have ALOT of explaining to do when we get face to face. I have questions that I feel are unanswered." I knew that God had a greater purpose, but I never thought that my attitude could be hindering what God has in store. I think God has just answered my question.

I can't think like an Israelite slave. I can't behave like a whinging, whining, questioning slave. I'm not a slave - I'm a child of God, set free from bondage and with a mission to serve our Mighty God! How I respond to the deserts I encounter will decide if I grow or if I don't. It's time to shake the slave mentality off and allow God to lead me where he wants to lead me. I can't surrender to God fully if I have a slave mentality.

I just had a water from the rock moment.

Dear Lord.
I'm sorry. I am so incredibly sorry that I have had a slave mentality all these years. I want to accept the circumstances to how I was conceived as something you ordained with a greater purpose. It's not because you hated me or my Mum and wanted to punish us. I want to accept your will and purpose for my life and not demand an explanation and threaten you with confrontation later on. I want to accept the circumstances of my conception with grace and have complete faith in you that whatever you have in store for me is going to be so amazing. I believe that there is a Promised Land for me in my future, and it's going to be far greater than we can ever think of.

Ephesians 3:20 Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.

Lord as I go through my life, I want each day, either good or bad, to be lived for your glory. I want to learn and grow each day. Help me remember that my attitude will decide this.

Thankyou for your grace, your mercy and your love.

Monday, January 4, 2010

It is well with my Soul

I hope you are blessed as you watch the amazing story of the man who wrote this hymn. This hymn really portrays such a wonderful attitude to have as we go through life's journey. Good and bad - it is well with my soul. No matter what, we can never lose the love the Father has for his beloved children.

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
when sorrows like sea billows roll;
whatever my lot, thou hast taught me to say,
It is well, it is well with my soul.

It is well with my soul,
it is well, it is well with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
let this blest assurance control,
that Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
and hath shed his own blood for my soul.

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

And, Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
the clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
the trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
even so, it is well with my soul.


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