Today in church, I was enjoying our time of corporate worship and just spending time in God's presence. I worshiped, I praised, I welcomed such a wonderful sense of God's presence in the place. Then I was still. I just sat at the feet of Christ, in a sense, and just listened and allowed my spirit to hear Him.
I felt that familiar niggle - what if you are destined to be a nobody? What if you have had your day and you will do nothing for God ever again? You have tickets on yourself thinking that you could do ANYTHING for God. Bah... Satan. You think I don't know you? You think I don't recognize a jab from the enemy? Well listen here - I have faith in my God. God is handling it - so you can toddle off and annoy someone else.
My heart whispered... "when God? I know you are taking me through fire, to refine me and to prepare me. I'm at peace with that.... but I keep remembering the promise. I can't forget this. I can't let it go. It keeps coming into my thoughts. When?"
As I poured my heart out to God... I heard God start to impart and start to speak to me.
"Write this down."
So I sat down, in the darkened auditorium, and began to write.
Peace Skipper. Peace. Be at peace in every area of your life. Do not be afraid. I am with you. I am leading you. I hear your heart's cry. I hear you. I know you. I am leading. Have peace my daughter. Be at peace. Those dreams I have planted will happen. Peace. Do not worry. I haven't forgotten you. Everything will come to pass. Let your heart rest in me. Fully. Not just in certain areas. Every area. Trust me. Trust IN me. And be at peace.
Thank you Father for speaking to me. Thank you for your continuing comfort and reassurance that it's all ok and I'm walking this journey with you. Thank you for not leaving me to flounder - that your hand is there holding me, and leading me, and giving me a good shove in the right direction when need be. Thank you for being so patient with me.