Saturday, September 3, 2011

In all things Give Thanks!

I've just spent the last 45 minutes or so begging God to help me. I'm sick. Really sick. I'm in excruciating pain from this sickness - I'm miserable, I can't stand, I can't sit, I can't sleep, I can't do anything. This virus has hit me so hard and I've had enough. I've been begging God to take it away. I've claimed in faith every healing scripture I could think of. I have touched the offending parts of my body that are hurt or bugging me, and have claimed healing in Jesus name. I have not been healed miraculously like I would like to be. I'm still sick. Still miserable...

Photobucket But God just spoke into my heart a moment ago "Whatever happens, give thanks, because it is God's will in Christ Jesus that you do this." (Thesselonians 5:18). Oh really??? Common, I'm not really feeling very thankful. As I type I am coughing up a lung and a kidney I'm sure!!! What have I got to be thankful for?? This has got me thinking.... What can I be thankful for during a time where I don't feel like being very thankful. 1. I am thankful that I am still breathing and living. My husband still has a wife - even though she is really useless at the moment - and my children still have their mother - even though she's crabby and tired. 2. I am thankful that I have a bed to lay in, even though I'm not sleeping. I'm warm, comfortable and safe. God has provided for me a basic need. 3. I am thankful that I have things to distract me from my pain. I can lay in bed with an iPod. I can sit at my computer and communicate. I am not THAT debillitated. 4. I am thankful for modern science, that God has given skills to find cures and help for my sickness. So it's not working so well at the moment, but I have some relief for a small amount of time. That is better than no relief. 5. I am thankful that I have a husband who cares for me and even though today is Father's Day and it's supposed to be all about him - he's helping me and compassionate towards me. He listens to me whine and whinge about my pain and sickness with patience and understanding. I am REALLY thankful for my husband today. I have lots of things to be thankful for. I just need to shift from an attitude of self centeredness and focussing on my pain to a heart of thankfulness to a God who is really really good, even though he doesn't do the miraculous immediate healing I want. God is good. I am thankful I serve this God, and thankful that he loves me and cherishes me, and listens to my whinging about my pain. I am thankful that this won't last forever, and that I will get better. I am thankful that I don't have cancer, like little James - who the doctors are struggling to treat, because it's coming back. I am thankful that I don't have leukemia like little Lishey, who bravely faces each new treatment, and struggles with the medications effecting his little body in such a significant way. So whatever happens, Skip - whether you are in pain for a while, or not, be thankful!! Praise the Lord and seek his face. Give him your worship instead of being so focussed on yourself!!! MY PRAYER Thank you Father for reminding me that I should cast aside "stinkin thinkin'" and adopt an "attitude of gratitude". Help me to remember this as I recover from this illness. Help me rest in you and cast my burdens on you, and believe in your goodness and grace towards me. I still want you to heal me. I still want to recover quickly so I can get back into my life again, but most of all I want to remember your blessings and be thankful for them. Amen

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Wow.... thanks for your blog! So encouraging to hear how God is teaching you.... thank you for sharing it! God bless you!


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